Jeffrey Deckman

What I have learned about the Light. Bearing witness to the sacred works of God’s healing. The most powerful spiritual class of my life. The greatest gift the experience of cancer blessed me with. Thank you.

Meeting with the surgeon. The impact of the news. “Cancer Sucks”. The side effects that I hope never go away. I have been shown my future. The vital importance of viewing life with Spiritual Eyes.

Messages from the other side. What happens when we sleep. Working off karma in the dream state. Setting the intention. Surrendering the outcome. Prepared to go through it all again.

Everything is Energy. The importance of being at the cause of things instead of at the affect. Engaging the Life Force and learning from it. Giving away the light to one who needed it. Seeing it’s immediate impact. Engaging energy to help heal.

Getting back to the basics. I am remembering what healthy feels like. Another gift of perspective that changed everything. Purpose strengthens me.

I may never be the same!

I am shedding a spiritual skin. I’m still learning how to be sick. Looking to get a day off.

If God is love and God’s love is everywhere, then where is the love in that? The insight that answered that question for me forever. The blessings are many because the lessons are many. The dangers of the victim mentality.

The HU is a Love song to God. I’m sick again. There must be more for me to learn. How the HU is helping me heal. It’s the most powerful love song to God. The difference between pain and suffering.

Thankful for those who choose healing as a career. The next level of Truth is revealed for me. The relationship between trust and surrender and why I accept “Thy will” over “My will”. God never limits me. I limit me. Cookies and puppy breath. A powerful mantra.

Struggling with memories. An emotional return. PTSD? People living with dignity and grace. An intimate conversation with myself.

Radiation continues radiating long after the treatments end. Learning hard lessons. The power of declaring health. Paying tribute to the body. Experiencing the future. Making direct contact with Spirit. How I recognize It. I am feeling like I don’t belong anywhere.

A specific strategy that works. Fear is just another form of cancer. Pray big and bold because God is Love. Don’t listen to the Liar Dude. Face the light.

The double amputee. Conversations at the Hope Lodge. I have to protect myself from negative energy and weak people. I’m losing my hearing but gaining perspective. The disease is devouring one of my new friends. How to deal with worse case scenarios.

Staying in the fight. I can’t give it an inch. Managing pain and the mind. Creating a positive spiral. Navigating the opiates. The amazing healing powers of aloe. The healing energy is accelerating.

Getting into the Hope Lodge living facility. An interesting mix-up. The Hope Lodge is a place of healing. I think I need a feeding tube. Getting into the grind of things. Another lesson in surrender.

4 weeks in and 3 to go. Physical changes are happening. Fatigue is setting in, my neck has radiation burns and the worst “strep” throat ever. Trying to manage pain and symptoms. Getting deep lessons on self worth, self love and self acceptance. "I AM."

The relationship between trust and surrender. There is no partial surrender. We have helpers on the “other side.” Answered prayers everywhere. Surrender and let the magic happen…because it will. Everything is going my way

Meeting and engaging others with cancer. They are all heroes and inspirations. The importance of my bother to my healing. I wouldn’t exchange having the pain of the disease for the benefit of the lessons.

But the pain is starting. I have nothing to complain about. Support from the AA community. My mind is slipping. A new treatment to prevent mouth sores. The symptoms increase. Pain management the details matter.