Jeffrey Deckman

Well meaning well wishers. Wah Z is another name for the Mahanta. The power of asking for help and the miracle. The power of changing perspectives and the benefits of this condition. Everything gets amped up.

Still room for humor and gratitude. Nothing will be the same after chemo. The treatment schedule. It’s getting very real now. Being present to my blessings and caring for my caregivers.

How the process unfolds. Every mask has a story. A message to my “mask compadres.” This stuff changes you but I decide how. The ultimate side effect

Dana Farbar is amazing beyond words.

My first “down” day. Doubt sets in and takes it’s toll. Feeling alone and dis-empowered. The third clear message is received. The bamboo story. The power of surrender, trust and being at the cause. Fighting back.

Deciding on the treatments. The tumor is still growing. Learning to surrender deeper and to listen better. I think I have to move. I am grateful and “I am all in.”

From anger to understanding. The second clear message is received. Telling the family. Never stop seeing the human in the human. I am in God’s class trying to understand the lesson being given.

Nothing is the same. Dealing with my mortality. Feeling claustrophobic. Making amends to my body; the apology. The first clear message is received.

I am Stage 3. I am not a victim...EVER. I don’t know how to do this; but God does. I am blessed to have a say in the outcome. I am really grateful. Plus, I have a great dog…

“I have one job and that is to heal.” Suiting up for battle. Being committed to being at the cause. Everything has to be loved and embraced; even the cancer.

Beginning the decision making process: Traditional or Holistic or both? Telling the family. The intimately personal nature of an uncertain journey. The spiritual tests begin. Life is a school. What class am I in?

A glossary of spiritual terms you will hear.

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